You've been on my mind, I grow fonder every day, Lose myself in time, Just thinking of your face, God only knows why it's taken me so long to let my doubts go, You're the only one that I want, I don't know why I'm scared, I've been here before, Every feeling, every word, I've imagined it all, You'll never know if you never try, To forgive your past and simply be mine, I dare you to let me be your, your one and only, Promise I'm worthy, To hold in your arms, So come on and give me a chance, To prove I am the one who can walk that mile, Until the end starts, If I've been on your mind, You hang on every word I say, Lose yourself in time, At the mention of my name, Will I ever know how it feels to hold you close, And have you tell me whichever road I choose, you'll go? I don't know why I'm scared, 'Cause I've been here before, Every feeling, every word, I've imagined it all, You'll never know if you never try, To forgive your past and simply be mine, [ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/one-and-only-lyrics-adele.html ] I dare you to let me be your, your one and only, I promise I'm worthy, mmm, To hold in your arms, So come on and give me a chance, To prove I am the one who can walk that mile, Until the end starts, I know it ain't easy giving up your heart, I know it ain't easy giving up your heart, Nobody's pefect, (I know it ain't easy giving up your heart), Trust me I've learned it, Nobody's pefect, (I know it ain't easy giving up your heart), Trust me I've learned it, Nobody's pefect, (I know it ain't easy giving up your heart), Trust me I've learned it, Nobody's pefect, (I know it ain't easy giving up your heart), Trust me I've learned it, So I dare you to let me be your, your one and only, I promise I'm worthy, To hold in your arms, So come on and give me a chance, To prove I am the one who can walk that mile, Until the end starts, Come on and give me a chance, To prove I am the one who can walk that mile, Until the end starts.

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     I MISS YOU ):

I’m down on my knees praying that you’ll love him better than I did, down on my knees begging the God to tell you to take care of him. I loved that guy so much! I hope you will too. Cause to tell you honestly, I back off because he’s very in love with you. Wishing for your happiness. Amin.

Human

Sometimes, I forgot I'm not God, I can't please everybody.

Sometimes they forgot, They cant push everybody.

Sometimes We forgot, We cant love everybody.

I have come to a point where everything stops and I begin to stare.

Where people show things I dont wanna see, when people say things I hardly wanna hear.

Where I feel very lonely, very deeply alone.

It is not that I dont have anyone who stands next to me. I just dont feel like looking at sides, back or even in front.

Like I said I have come to a point where everything stops and I begin to stare.

Feelings-- That includes in 'everything'. Feelings to share, feelings to show, feelings to love, feelings to hate. I begin to stare, stare at things I've done. Stare at people who hurts me, stare at everything.

As I begin to wonder, I came up with a conclusion where nothing's ever matter. Life is a continuous journey, if you fail to shape it, you will end up with same ol' life.

This moment, I should name it a golden moment. A moment where I realized the life that I shape now is practically in a wrong shape with wrong content.

Therefore, I started to ctrl+A and shift+del it.

Breath. Reborn. Can you feel the different atmosphere?

- this is for YOU-

If you loved someone, you couldn’t let lies come between you. No matter what happened - even if you’d already lost each other forever - you owed each other the truth.

Let's make things clear.

 I’m tired of being sorry. u guys, please get a life? I made a choice to finally let go everything, because I can't stand the pain anymore. why did I break up with him? hurm. well ,it's like, once I sat down and looked at the situation, all the pieces lying on the floor, it just wasn't a puzzle anymore. none of the pieces fit together. and even if I tried really hard, i mean, we tried but they were still two different puzzles. frustrated because I can't tell if it's real. upset because we can't make it right. aggravated because u don't understand. disappointed because we can't be together. that's why I did it, This is not my decision,its YOURS. I love you too much and i'm sorry for that,i can't help myself. All of my instincts was true. The mcd girl i've met and all her story was FUCKING TRUE. Now,i'm telling myself that ME and YOU were not meant to be together. I accept that as my FATE. stalkers, u guys really needs to understand that.

maybe they are right. maybe I did get my hopes up too high. maybe I was in over my head. maybe I am the stupid one for ever thinking that u loved me, but maybe, just maybe, I am tired of being alone. I know I'm not completely over him. he still crosses my mind several times a day, but with each one of those times, a feeling of contempt also passes through my heart. maybe if this happens enough, my heart will become completely hardened to him, and I'll get to the point where he doesn't affect me anymore. right?

I didn't ask for it to be over, but then again, I didn't ask for it to begin. for that's the way it is with life, as some of the most beautiful days come completely by chance.

am I mad at u? that's ur main concern after shattering my whole world? mad for what? breaking my heart? or for all the lies? maybe for letting me put all my trust in u only to be betrayed? how about the fact u didn't even have the decency to tell me to my face? or the way u think it's crazy that I'm crying over it cause to u breaking up is no big deal. am I mad at u? seriously, NO! more like crushed. did I ever really know u?

the only hope I have is to accept the fact that u're already gone.

guys, of course, u're going to get ur heart broken. and it isn't just going to happen once, but a lot. that's just part of growing up, and it makes u stronger. then u can handle it better next time. u may not get through it urself, but ur friends will help u through it. they will always help u especially your family. u guys have been everything and mean everything to me. yet, don’t forget to pray to God.. and u'll be a stronger person because of it. then one day someone will come along, and it'll all pay off and no one will ever break ur heart again. 
I promise u. no worries. okay? 

Love,Sarah Eldora
Xoxo

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